hello honesty, where've you been all my life?

amanda can make do with honesty back in her life. it ran away with all the hope she built for herself. it ran away, & amanda cant find it.

amanda tried the other day, with up front honesty, to tell the truth. amanda tried. but amanda couldnt take it. she laughed it all off, & everyone assumed that that laugh was honest as well.

amanda hates it. they way she cant cry. the way she cant go to the first person she sees walking by her & pour her heart out. the way everyday seems to make it worse. the way she knows how she is supposed to be around others. the way she has a smile all ready for the world to see.

amanda cant take it.

amanda didnt want to lie. im not fine, but i'll survive.

forgive her for lying.